"Everyone disapproves," Ivar pointed out. His older brothers were just the most vocal. He was pretty sure Bjorn was looking for the first excuse to bury Heahmund in a shallow grave. This was saying nothing of those in Heahmund's social circle, his neighbors and fellow professors.
Heahmund's suggestion that this relationship might be long-term warmed Ivar's heart. He'd love to think they might stand the test of time.
"I know." He molded himself to Heahmund's side after he was kissed, head resting on his chest. "I'm sorry that I'm difficult sometimes." Then again, Heahmund seemed to enjoy the push and pull in their relationship.
It’s true. Which is why Heahmund had hid their relationship from everyone in his own circles. Of course, the neighbors have likely figured it out, judged him for it but it hadn’t made it back to the university as far as he could tell. The disapproval of Ivar’s family was enough for Heahmund to deal with.
“You’re not sorry,” Heahmund counters, smirking briefly. His fingers brush through Ivar’s hair and down his back.
“No one would believe that you are the one taking advantage of me,” he teased. It’s a rare joke from him, though, it does hold some truth. It had always been Ivar pushing the boundaries, demanding more and often just taking it no matter the lines Heahmund tried to draw.
Ivar let out a contented sigh when he felt Heahmund's fingers on him. He'd never get used to his lover's touch.
"Why would they? I'm innocent and pure," he said with a chuckle. It was true though. Heahmund had done everything he could to draw a line in the sand and make Ivar stay on one side of it. Ivar was the one who had done his best to seduce Heahmund and had for the most part succeeded.
"I'm hungry. Let's order Chinese tonight," he said, hand slipping under Heahmund's shirt and idly tracing patterns on his muscular form. No matter what anyone else thought, this relationship made him happy, much more so than he'd been in a long time.
Heahmund chuckles softly and his hand rubbed lightly along the other's spine as the other's was idly touching him under his shirt. He was happy too, though, there would always be a concern that maybe is the product of not being young enough to not care about the consequences.
Ivar closes his eyes for a brief moment to let himself be present in the moment, focusing on the senses of touch and sound. With his eyes still closed, he asks a question. "Do you really see yourself still being with me in a few years?"
He wanted to think that Heahmund would want to be with him, but three or four years was a long time. Maybe the novelty of having Ivar in his life would wear off for the older man and he'd move on.
Heahmund tilts his head when the other asks that question and he looks at him as he does. His hand spreads out over his back.
"I'm not young, my attentions aren't easily swayed, Ivar," Heahmund says in way of answer. He can see more than a few years but Ivar is young and who knows when Ivar would tire of him.
Ivar doesn't answer when Heahmund reassures him he's in this for the long haul. He knows Heahmund always tells him the truth and Ivar is grateful for it.
He loves this man so much it almost hurts sometimes. He knows it's foolish, but he's thought about the future a lot, and he can honestly see himself growing old with Heahmund. Well, older, considering the age gap between them. Their passions, intelligence, and emotions were very similar, all things considered.
Finally, he speaks, eyes still closed. "You really care about me that much?" Ivar's extremely needy, but fortunately Heahmund seems to understand, and provide a near endless amount of support.
Heahmund will give him as many assurances as he needs and about as often as he needs them despite sometimes it being frustrating. It is part of dating and loving Ivar.
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Heahmund's suggestion that this relationship might be long-term warmed Ivar's heart. He'd love to think they might stand the test of time.
"I know." He molded himself to Heahmund's side after he was kissed, head resting on his chest. "I'm sorry that I'm difficult sometimes." Then again, Heahmund seemed to enjoy the push and pull in their relationship.
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“You’re not sorry,” Heahmund counters, smirking briefly. His fingers brush through Ivar’s hair and down his back.
“No one would believe that you are the one taking advantage of me,” he teased. It’s a rare joke from him, though, it does hold some truth. It had always been Ivar pushing the boundaries, demanding more and often just taking it no matter the lines Heahmund tried to draw.
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"Why would they? I'm innocent and pure," he said with a chuckle. It was true though. Heahmund had done everything he could to draw a line in the sand and make Ivar stay on one side of it. Ivar was the one who had done his best to seduce Heahmund and had for the most part succeeded.
"I'm hungry. Let's order Chinese tonight," he said, hand slipping under Heahmund's shirt and idly tracing patterns on his muscular form. No matter what anyone else thought, this relationship made him happy, much more so than he'd been in a long time.
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"Alright, whatever you want."
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He wanted to think that Heahmund would want to be with him, but three or four years was a long time. Maybe the novelty of having Ivar in his life would wear off for the older man and he'd move on.
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"I'm not young, my attentions aren't easily swayed, Ivar," Heahmund says in way of answer. He can see more than a few years but Ivar is young and who knows when Ivar would tire of him.
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He loves this man so much it almost hurts sometimes. He knows it's foolish, but he's thought about the future a lot, and he can honestly see himself growing old with Heahmund. Well, older, considering the age gap between them. Their passions, intelligence, and emotions were very similar, all things considered.
Finally, he speaks, eyes still closed. "You really care about me that much?" Ivar's extremely needy, but fortunately Heahmund seems to understand, and provide a near endless amount of support.
maybe fin on this one?
"I do."