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[doubled_speed]

It takes a bit of quick talking and promises as he shoves his brother through the portal. When it closes he returns to Gar in a blur, hugging him.

“Tell me what you need.”

[garrrr]

Gar watches Tommy and Billy until he is in Tommy’s arms. He shakes his head.

“I don’t need anything,” he shakes his head. “You’ve already done a lot...”

“You don’t want Billy to know?”

[doubled_speed]

"It's not like that," Tommy says at all, holding Gar so close. Scenting him because he needs to smell his lover close and safe and hopefully content in his arms.

"Billy is... he'd be worse than me. He'd try and magic everything you want and might need. Even if you don't need it. And he's going to be SO gushy when it happens. I just... want this to be mine for a little bit."

[garrrr]

Gar relaxes further as the other scents him, keeps him close and he feels safe with him. He hadn't exactly felt unsafe before but he'd been anxious and unhappy.

He tilted his head to look at Tommy and he seems a little relieved by the answer because maybe there'd been a little bit of worry that Tommy was ashamed of this, or him or ... something.

"Okay. I was worried..." he trails off and he feels a bit ashamed of it now that that's where he'd gone first instead of why Tommy really hid it.

[doubled_speed]

Ashamed? No, Tommy was only ashamed of himself. Because the guy had thought, probably correctly, that Tommy would be like that. Which was disgusting. He was... going to try and do his best to prove it wrong.

"You know I haven't hid you even one bit since we started down this road, Gar. It's more... I want this to be mine. For a little while let this just be mine."

[garrrr]

Gar smiles then and Tommy's right about that. He shifts a little again only so he can lean in to kiss him briefly. He tucks his head down against the other's shoulder after that. His hand moving to grab one of Tommy's and slowly pulling it to rest of his stomach. It's still early but Tommy would be able to feel the difference in his body already.

"It's ours for now," he says. It's what he'd wanted from the moment he'd found out even if the whole idea of going through this was terrifying he had just wanted to share it with Tommy.

[doubled_speed]

Oh wow, their... their kid must be growing right there, right? Oh god. Tommy can't help how his hand shakes with nervousness. What if he does this all wrong?

"I don't know how to be a good dad."

[garrrr]

Gar keeps his hand on Tommy's and he closes his eyes content with this.

"I'm scared too, Tommy. I barely remember my parents..."

[doubled_speed]

"I think... barely remembering them might be better than the life I've experienced," Tommy whispers. "But... but if I'm gonna have kids, I like that they'd be with you. You're a damn good guy."

[garrrr]

Gar laces their fingers together and it's almost hard to really comprehend that there's a baby growing inside of him, that that's why he's so nauseous and tired -- though, the tired is also the fact he hadn't been able to sleep well for a number of reasons.

"You're a good guy too. You're a good alpha...mate, we'll figure this out" he squeezes his hand. "I missed you so much..."

[doubled_speed]

"You... ran because you were scared I would run," Tommy admits, letting his hand get squeezed. "And... you're probably right. Because I'm an idiot."

[garrrr]

Gar shakes his head. "But you're not running now... you're here where I need you to be."

[doubled_speed]

He is. He is. And that means something.

“Would... it be okay to nest up right now and put my head on your stomach.”

[garrrr]

Gar bites his lip at the request and he is reluctant to pull his hand away from his completely but he nods.

"Of course."

[doubled_speed]

Like Tommy’s hand is coming off of him.

“This is perfect. I could carry you?”

[garrrr]

"Onward my chariot then," Gar grins briefly.

[doubled_speed]

Tommy hums happily and while his hand does have to leave Gar’s stomach, he lifts the man gently. He doesn’t fun fast, he doesn’t want to upset that stomach. So tender, so nervous. Instead he just carries his lover and puts him down gently on the mound of pillows.

[garrrr]

He shifts around and settles once the other put him down on the pillows.

"You're being so good to me."

[doubled_speed]

“I’m... I’m meant to do that,” Tommy counters as he lays down with Gar, curling around his body and putting his head, and a hand, on Gar’s stomach.

“I’ll get you a ring. I should have before this.”

[garrrr]

“Tommy....” Gar says softly, his fingers brushing through Tommy’s hair and idly playing with it.

“You don’t have to do that.”

[doubled_speed]

And if he wants to? If he feels he needs to? Someone tell him how to do this. How to be someone’s partner and everything.

“We’re mates.”

[garrrr]

Gar can’t help but worry that it’s some weird pressure that Tommy’s now putting on himself and not because he actually wants to.

“We are... I just... you don’t have to.”

[doubled_speed]

“And if I want to?” he asks, voice soft. Because he can’t imagine being without Gar. Especially not now.

[garrrr]

“Then I’d love that,” Gar says and he’s speaking just as softly. He curls some of his hair around his index finger. “As long as you want to.”

[doubled_speed]

Tommy shivers slightly in pleasure from the fingers in his hair.

“I marked you, didn’t I?”