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[doubled_speed]

“You think... there is any chance I’ll be good at this? I mean you’re the only one who can tell me how good I am as a partner.”

As a boyfriend. As a potential father. As a lot of things.

[garrrr]

Gar smiles then at that. He leans over to press a light kiss to Tommy's forehead despite the awkward angle before settling back again.

"I know you'll be good at this, Tommy. You're good to me. You'll be good for our baby too, I know it."

Gar believes in the endless potential of Tommy.

[doubled_speed]

Oh what a powerful word that was. Powerful two words. Our baby. Something be both longed for and still didn’t believe. Probably wouldn’t until Gar was showing.

“Our baby. God, Gar. We’re gonna have a kid. We’re barely adults ourselves. We fucked on a rooftop on Boston and both half HOPED to get caught. What are guys like us gonna teach a kid?”

Yeah. Here’s his panic. But he is making NO motion to move.

[garrrr]

Gar could tell Tommy was panicking and it kind of made him feel a rise of anxiety and panic himself but he pushed it down because he couldn’t calm Tommy down if he was freaking out too. His hand returned to soothingly petting through Tommy’s hair and it mattered so much that Tommy might be panicking but he wasn’t moving away from him even a little bit. When Gar had found out he hadn’t been able to stay still so he would have understood it if Tommy got up... but he was there, his head and hand on his stomach. Gar could already imagine when there would be more of a bump there than the more indescriminate weight gain...

“Our sex life kind of has nothing to do with what we’d teach a kid,” Gar says after a few seconds. “You’ll teach him to be fair and to stand up for what’s right and not let people take advantage of others. I’ll teach him how to believe in people when they don’t believe in themselves.”

[doubled_speed]

Fair enough on the sex life front. But mostly Tommy's focused on nuzzling against that damn good body right there, against hat stomach. His kid. Right there. Waiting for them to be ready. Considerate like that, so clearly the kid already takes after daddy Gar because Tommy was ALWAYS earlier than expected and NEVER considerate about timing.

"All those things you said seem more like your wheelhouse."

[garrrr]

Gar shakes his head, fingers twisting in Tommy’s hair again. He shifts just slightly, settling just a bit more comfortably.

“You’re still underestimating yourself.”

Gar knows he’s capable of so much.

[doubled_speed]

"Maybe, but I doubt it," Tommy counters, and if his words are a bit more slurred, it's because he's trying hard to just breathe in all the scent of Gar.

[garrrr]

Gar smiles and he can’t help it when it comes to Tommy and he likes the way the other is definitely wrapped up in him and their baby. He knows Tommy is going to be a good dad and that gives him a lot of peace of mind.

“One day you might see yourself how I see you.”

[doubled_speed]

"Can't. Don't have a constant mirror," Tommy counters, because the snark is a defensive measure. They both know it. "But you and this kid? I'll give both of your stupid asses the world."

[garrrr]

"Idiot," Gar says affectionately, fingers rubbing lightly at the other's scalp.

"Hey, don't call our kid stupid, you'll give them a complex."

[doubled_speed]

"They'll be smarter than me," Tommy answers, finally lifting his head to look at Gar. "I want him to be like you."

[garrrr]

Gar furrows his brow as he looks at Tommy. His hand slips from his hair and strokes along his jaw gently.

"I want him to be like us both." His thumb brushes along his chin and then his bottom lip.

[doubled_speed]

Tommy wants to point out he's a wreck. That he's terrible and that people shouldn't really trust him or look to him. But he won't ever talk about that. Gar doesn't take Tommy hating himself so well.

"I don't want a speedster kid."

[garrrr]

"And I don't necessarily want a toddler that can turn into a tiger when they're mad," Gar points out. "We don't really get to choose... I don't know how any of this works but I know that."

[doubled_speed]

Well, that is true. They don't get to choose. But there are some advantages.

"If... the kid takes after me, is a mutant, that usually doesn't come out until adolescence?"

Usually. It isn't a universal truth.

[garrrr]

Gar's fingers trail along the other's jaw again. "Kind of hard to predict what a mutant with a science experiment will end up creating together," he's a little worried about it but mostly he'd been ignoring it.

He leaned over to press a kiss to the other's forehead.

[doubled_speed]

"Well... they'll at least be hot," Tommy smiles as he shifts so he isn't lying with his head on Gar's stomach. Can't live there like that. Even if he wants to.

[garrrr]

"Is that a good thing?" Gar laughs, shifting a little again when the other did. He exhales as he tilts his head back.

"I think this is the first time i've not felt nauseous in weeks."

[doubled_speed]

Tommy does still move so he's mostly coiled around his mate. Where else would he ever want to be?

"Maybe I'm good for something then. For once."

[garrrr]

Gar wants him close, needs him close right now. After being apart from him so long...

"Don't say things like that. You're good for a lot of things... like... sex... the most amazing dates around the world, standing up for people, protecting me..." he trails off.

"You're good for me."

[doubled_speed]

"Aw, I knew you loved me best for my cock," Tommy teases, his fingers coming to toy with Gar's hair.

[garrrr]

“Your cock definitely doesn’t hurt,” Gar smirks and he nudged Tommy gently. “Might not be what I love most about you but I missed that too.”

[doubled_speed]

"Unless we're not prepping enough," Tommy shrugs. But he smiles and moves to kiss Gar's hair.

"This kid is going to have to deal with some weird shit. But snuggly tiger dad."

[garrrr]

“I kind of like that kind of hurt sometimes though so does it really even count?” Gar slips one of his arms around Tommy, holding close to him and just settling into his warmth and scent and everything about him that felt exactly as it should be.

“Hopefully that won’t be scary,” he laughs. “They’re gonna have a lot of people who love them a lot.”

[doubled_speed]

Well of course there will be a lot of people excited for them. Billy will definitely be up there.

"You tell your team?"