[ TFLN 3.0 - 2020 ]

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@ neverlooksaway

[threefourths]

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How do you know that for sure?

[ It shouldn't bother him really. It's not like he's ashamed, really but there's something in him still damaged by his father most likely that holds him back. ]

[neverlooksaway]

Because she actually cares about my being happy.

[Part of him gets that; the other part kinda feels like it's because he's not good enough, that Alex is ashamed of him.]

[threefourths]

I’m just... not ready for that, Guerin.

[neverlooksaway]

I know.

[threefourths]

But you're still upset with me.

[neverlooksaway]

I'm not upset with you.

[threefourths]

It kind of feels like you are though.

[neverlooksaway]

I'm not. Disappointed, maybe, and feeling a bit like you're still ashamed to be with me, but. I can wait.

[threefourths]

I'm not ashamed of you.

[neverlooksaway]

You see how it could feel that way? It's not like you're not out, so the issue seems to be me.

[threefourths]

I see it but it’s still not it. It’s about me and my issues, Guerin.

[neverlooksaway]

So you keep saying. And I'm trying to believe you; I really am.

[threefourths]

Why don’t you trust me?

[neverlooksaway]

I do. With my life. My secrets. My freedom. My heart's just a little harder. I'm trying.

[threefourths]

it just doesn’t make it any easier...

[neverlooksaway]

No, I guess it doesn't.

[threefourths]

The last time someone knew about us your hand was ruined because of me.

[neverlooksaway]

That wasn't your fault. And you realize...I could've stopped him, right?

[threefourths]

No you couldn't. If you had you would have exposed yourself. It wasn't actually a possible choice.

[neverlooksaway]

I could've killed him for ever hurting you. Problem of my exposure solved, too.

[threefourths]

That’s not who you are.

[neverlooksaway]

That still doesn't make it your fault.

[threefourths]

I let you protect me.