He'd never expected to marry at all. A fantasy marrying Wei Wuxian aside, Lan Wangji is a reasonably realistic kind of man. No matter how he feels, once Wuxian died, he accepted he would be alone until Wuxian's return.
But it seems even that is to be nixed. Already has been. They merely have the formality of going through with the ceremony. Is it fair to either of them? No. But he has also accepted his brother's decision as what is probably best for all of them, even if he doesn't see it himself.
Sitting across the small table from Huaisang, hearing that soft voice speak his title feels...stilted. He inwardly chastises himself - he needs to make more of an effort to express himself now. Not everyone automatically understands him - very few do, really.
And then Huaisang seems to take responsibility for their situation, and he immediately frowns a little, shaking his head. "Not your responsibility. Our brothers are protective. Wish us the best."
Huaisang studies Wangji as the other speaks and he exhales softly and then focuses for a moment on pouring tea for the other and wine for himself, not waiting but a moment before swallowing the contents of the small cup. He needs to soothe his anxiety. His fan is set on the table as he looks over it again at Wangji.
"I'm not sure how this protects you," Huaisang says. Wangji is capable of protecting himself he doesn't need the Nie Sect or Huaisang.
He watches silently as tea is poured for him, and wine for Huaisang before the other man downs the small cup. It's tempting to pour a cup of wine for himself too, but he resists easily. He'll leave it to Huaisang, while he takes a sip of tea while his intended settles his nerves.
"Protecting you gives me purpose," he makes an attempt to explain. "An anchor." He shouldn't need it. He should be strong enough to weather even this.
But his brother is wise, and so he's chosen to listen.
Huaisang pours more wine and he listens. His brow furrowing. Huaisang had never been blind. He had figured out long before that it had been something more that Wangji had felt for Wei Wuxian and that this... He sighs to himself, staring down into his cup. It'd always been foolish of him but he'd believed he could marry for love, a happy loving marriage. This...
"Doesn't that just make marriage a task to complete for you?" Huaisang says and maybe that's the part that bothers him the most that whether this was truly right or not or whether they'd be happy didn't factor in. He knew Nie Mingjue probably wasn't thinking about it at all. He was thinking about the people of Qinghe and the fact that he believes that Huaisang is too weak to protect them. "Like another rule to follow."
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But it seems even that is to be nixed. Already has been. They merely have the formality of going through with the ceremony. Is it fair to either of them? No. But he has also accepted his brother's decision as what is probably best for all of them, even if he doesn't see it himself.
Sitting across the small table from Huaisang, hearing that soft voice speak his title feels...stilted. He inwardly chastises himself - he needs to make more of an effort to express himself now. Not everyone automatically understands him - very few do, really.
And then Huaisang seems to take responsibility for their situation, and he immediately frowns a little, shaking his head. "Not your responsibility. Our brothers are protective. Wish us the best."
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"I'm not sure how this protects you," Huaisang says. Wangji is capable of protecting himself he doesn't need the Nie Sect or Huaisang.
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"Protecting you gives me purpose," he makes an attempt to explain. "An anchor." He shouldn't need it. He should be strong enough to weather even this.
But his brother is wise, and so he's chosen to listen.
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"Doesn't that just make marriage a task to complete for you?" Huaisang says and maybe that's the part that bothers him the most that whether this was truly right or not or whether they'd be happy didn't factor in. He knew Nie Mingjue probably wasn't thinking about it at all. He was thinking about the people of Qinghe and the fact that he believes that Huaisang is too weak to protect them. "Like another rule to follow."