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[unlanlike]

It doesn't! I mean... I know who I am.

[lanerjiejie]

And have I said you are difficult, or made you doubt who you are?

[unlanlike]

No.

[lanerjiejie]

Then can I not be of help?

[unlanlike]

Some things are hard to admit, especially to certain people.

[lanerjiejie]

I am unworthy as an Elder.

[unlanlike]

WHat?! No...! Why would you say that? You are the most amazing!

[lanerjiejie]

And yet I cannot help you at a difficult time.

[unlanlike]

That's my own failing!

[lanerjiejie]

... Then do you need to be punished for it?

[unlanlike]

Probably...

It's a dumb problem anyway.

[lanerjiejie]

I cannot opine if I do not know the particulars.

[unlanlike]

But once I tell you the particulars I can't untell them.

[lanerjiejie]

What are you afraid of?

[unlanlike]

Ghosts! ...A lot of things.

[ He knows that's not the point of the question... ]

Of being a disappointment or embarrassed. Or feeling stupider than usual.

[lanerjiejie]

You've never disappointed me. And even if Shifu might disagree, questions are not stupid. Asking questions means you want to learn.

[unlanlike]

[ It's a little bit before Jingyi's replying to that message from Wangji. He reads it several, several times and will be saving it forever. ]

It's... the problem is of the heart.

[lanerjiejie]

Why would you be embarrassed to tell me of that?

[Hello, do you remember who she's married to?]

[unlanlike]

[ He's well aware!! ]

Because! It's different.

[lanerjiejie]

Different enough that you cannot tell me anything?

[unlanlike]

I don't think your heart has ever been pulled in two directions.

[lanerjiejie]

...... No, it has not.

But that does not mean I would not try give counsel.

[unlanlike]

I know you would try. It feels awkward and embarrassing.