Hawaii Vacation Threads

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[garrrr]

That surprises Gar. He squeezes the others hand and shakes his head.

“You don’t have to say anything, Tommy. I know,” and he tries not to say it but god sometimes things just feel so intense it bubbles out. And he feels guilty for the look on his boyfriend’s face.

He grabs another bite of food with his free hand.

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“You... look hurt when i don’t say it back. I hate that.”

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“I don’t mean to...” Gar says, looking away from Tommy then. “I’m sorry.”

Gar looks down at their hands. Tommy sees him more than anyone else and sometimes he doesn’t even realize it. He brings Tommy’s hand to his cheek, nuzzling it.

“I don’t need you to say it, I mean it. I know how you feel.” And it does hurt a little when Tommy doesn’t say it even if he doesn’t want it to hurt. It doesn’t seem fair to Tommy.

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“I... can’t. If I say it, something will take you from me,” Tommy says. That the world has most definitely taught him. It’s scary enough to love Gar. It’s terrifying that Gar knows it. The chance that he’ll lose the guy if he says it out loud, though. That’s... unfathomable. “Losing you would kill me.”

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“You will never lose me,” Gar says and he presses his lips to the others hand, smiling. “Hawaii is too beautiful to be sad in Tommy.”

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And yet he's sad anyway. Because he's failing. Tommy... pulls his lover closer and holds him tightly.

"I wanna be happy here."

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“Then just remember we’re both here and we’re good. And this food is not gonna eat itself and then... you can show me how much you care about me,” Gar nudges him gently but he also just turns into the other more. This is all he really needs.

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If only Tommy believed it was true. That Gar didn't worry constantly. For now he accepts it for what it is. And he gestures at Gar.

"Sit in my lap while we eat?"

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Gar shifts to climb into Tommy’s lap happy to do so. “You’re more comfortable anyway.”

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"Thanks," Tommy smiles, nuzzling his partner's neck before reaching for more fruit.

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Gar starts to eat again. He is pretty sure they both are still feeling guilty. There’s a sort of heaviness that still lingers in the air and he doesn’t know what to do about it but snuggle in close and eat dinner with Tommy.

“It’s crazy I feel like I can hear the ocean from here.”

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"I can," Tommy answers, because he can hear it. Especially when he closes his eyes. They'll figure it out. They have to. Tommy smiles and kisses his boyfriend's neck before starting to have a piece of bread dipped in the chocolate.

"You're almost as sweet as this."

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Gar just laughs. “I am definitely not nearly as sweet as chocolate,” he protests but it’s good natured. Gar teasingly grabs Tommy’s wrist to guide that piece into his own mouth instead of Tommy’s.

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Wow, how rude. Tommy laughs and lets Gar take the food. He is pleased when he goes ahead and takes another piece for himself.

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Gar nuzzles the other's shoulder after eating that piece. A little while later he took one of the strawberries and dipped it in chocolate shifting to offer it to Tommy.

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They’re doing this? Totally awesome. Tommy loves the idea that they’re doing this and being so insanely sappy and silly. Just don’t tell his team because wow they will tease him for him finally giving in and being like this.

He takes the strawberry and wraps his mouth around it, but makes sure his tongue flickered over Gar’s fingers.

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Gar grins a the feeling of the other's tongue. He leans in to kiss him after pulling his hand away from the other's mouth. The taste of chocolate on his lips.

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Mmmm, chocolate. Tommy hums happily against that taste, his fingers curling in his partner's hair. And at last he pulls away, shaking his head.

"Incorrigible."

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"You wound me," Gar teases and he leans into the other's fingers, enjoying every bit of that. He feeds himself a strawberry then.

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"I love you too much for that."

He says it without thinking. Doesn't even notice it after the fact. Just reaches for a bit of banana on a pretzel stick to dip.

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Gar feels his heart stop for a moment and his stomach flipping. He definitely is caught off guard but he knows he can’t show it, can’t say that word again but god he wants too.

He just hugs his arms around him, pressing his lips to the others jaw.

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Good thing he doesn't say it. Tommy would flip out if he knew he slipped up. Which is interesting. For now he smiles at the lips on him.

"We're supposed to eat. Should I open the cheese for the meat?

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Gar nips ar Tommy’s jaw and gives a dramatic sigh.

“Yes.”

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"You're just a silly man," Tommy laughs as he reaches past his boyfriend to get some meat on a stick. "You want first bite?"

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“Why am I silly now?” Gar questions and nods. He relents on pressing kisses to the others jaw and neck, settling a bit more comfortably into his lap.