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"Be patient with me while I deal with all of this?" Teddy asks, sighing.
Before they were initmate? Teddy blushes and looks away from Gar.
"A year and a half."
"A year and a half."
"Patience," Teddy sighs. "Let me get there? Let me be ready? When I'm ready, you'll be the first to know."
"I... really like you Gar, I want to get there too," Teddy promises, his voice now soft. But he's still nervous. "I do. I just... I'm not ready yet. It takes time."
"Please," Teddy says, reaching for Gar. "Tell me what you're thinking."
Oh no. That's his fault. Teddy rises and pulls Gar into his arms.
"I love you, Gar. I'm sorry."
"I love you, Gar. I'm sorry."
"You're just short of shaking. Which means I did something to upset you too. Because we're not talking, so I don't understand it. I want to understand it."
"Let me fly you somewhere?"
Somewhere they can be alone?
Somewhere they can be alone?
Teddy guides the man just a bit away. Enough to get them behind bushes. Then he goes green and forms wings and lifts Gar into his arms. Then he takes to the sky, relaxing.
It's nerve wracking even though he knows Teddy is more than strong enough to hold him. He doesn't look down or he'll do anything but calm down. Instead his head is tucked into the other as he holds on while they fly. He wonders where Teddy's taking them but he hadn't bothered to ask. He just needed to not be where Billy or Dawn could see him be such a mess and a total failure.
Which sucks because he's pretty sure Billy is perfect so why even is Teddy with him and how could he love him?
Which sucks because he's pretty sure Billy is perfect so why even is Teddy with him and how could he love him?
Teddy doesn't take them far. Just gets them to a nearby rooftop and then lands before putting Gar on his feet. And kisses him lightly on the head when he does so.
"Hey there. Sorry to do that. Doesn't seem like flight is your thing."
"Hey there. Sorry to do that. Doesn't seem like flight is your thing."
"Just not in the right frame of mind to enjoy it," Gar says and that's pretty much the truth of it. His arms slip away and he just crosses them again. He goes to the edge of the rooftop looking out.
"I'm thinking I'm not good enough... and I don't deserve you."
And there were more than a few things in his past that make those particular feelings be where he gets hyperfocused on.
"And that it hurts a lot to feel like you don't trust me and..." he shakes his head, a shrug. "Just... you don't trust me."
He can't admit that he feels unwanted. It feels wrong to say even what he's already said.
"I'm thinking I'm not good enough... and I don't deserve you."
And there were more than a few things in his past that make those particular feelings be where he gets hyperfocused on.
"And that it hurts a lot to feel like you don't trust me and..." he shakes his head, a shrug. "Just... you don't trust me."
He can't admit that he feels unwanted. It feels wrong to say even what he's already said.
Well, what had he done with that conversation to earn trust?
"I trust you, Gar. You... you know who I am. That secret is in my team and three or four Avengers. No one else."
"I trust you, Gar. You... you know who I am. That secret is in my team and three or four Avengers. No one else."
"Woah," Teddy says, frowning. "That's not what I'm saying. I don't... I don't think that, Gar. Not at all."
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